today is my birthday. and i am 31.
seriously when did time totally speed up and decide to make me so old? maybe it's the fact that i work with a bunch of 18 year olds, or that fact that i don't really look or feel my age, but 31 seems so...serious. like at 31 you should have the perfect job and a house and kids and dogs and eat fancy dinners on placemats....um...i don't even have a table...sad but true.
but that is ok because i am not serious. part of me being me is that i don't take things too seriously...well most of the time. this past year of my life has had so many ups and downs and yet i also feel like not much has happened. i know that doesn't really make any sense but it's almost like all these things were happening around me yet i was standing still. like i should have been doing something but i wasn't because it was all just too much to take in. maybe that's what happens when you move...it takes a year for you to settle.
but settling is kinda boring. i need some adventure and to explore. so i've decided that 31 is going to be the year of me. i spend a lot of my time focused on making others happy that i sometimes forget to take care of me and i think i've earned the right to be a little selfish. it's time to take care of myself and figure out what my next step is. i want to make an impact on world and in order to do that i need to stop and take a deep breath...or two...and focus and just be. i need to live. so 31...i'm ready for you. lets make this the best year yet...and the best me yet!!